I have had for a long time now a great
urge to move house.
This is not surprising for me as during
my first marriage we moved on average
once a year but changing residence I now
see was a way of trying to keep my
marriage alive.
I am now extremely happy with my partner
John whom I have been with for almost 18
years so this discontentment with my home
is really shameful, selfish and even
probably a bit snobbish.
This shocks me because I have a particular
dislike of 'snobbishness'. However I am
aware of the reasons for it ,some of
them legitimate and some not so.
There was a time of course when I had
to dismantle my family , lock stock
and barrel. This move was not a happy
one as we all went our separate ways,
I was separating from my ex and my sons
were going to University.
I had a great feeling of loss as it was
the end of everything I felt I worked for
my marriage, bringing up my children ,
my guest house business in my nice home
by the seaside.
Its often difficult not to look back in
life specially if a big part of it has
ended sadly and all you have left are
the happier earlier memories and the
grief of what could have been and what
was mean to be.
However I know that we shouldnt look back,
yes think of the nice memories but not
to yearn for something that was never
realistically was never going to happen.
At times of these discontented feelings
I try to stop and re-evaluate my present
situation . I immediately think of the true
love I now have, the real....
"HOME" (albeit so tiny, I cant swing a cat)
I now have, the trust I can now put
in a truly loyal partner. If I am really
honest with myself if I had to live in
a cupboard with a jet plane flying over
head constantly, I know I would be happier
now and more loved that I ever was in
my big fancy house with my ex.
Of course I will always miss my sons
but many people dont have the wonderful
memories I have of their childhood
and my days with them.
I know it would help if I now shared my
grandkids but God knows the situation and
He has a plan for me and for them and I
should know He knows best .
We all have natural,human feelings of course.
I know for certain though that one day
my final Home is going to be with my
Father in Heaven and I find that if I
really think of that it is so comforting
and I actually get excited about it.
What a blast that is going to be!!
I sit and think of Heaven as being
long walks with good friends, shared
meals without rushing , endless
laughter at no ones expense, meaningful
work in the wonderful community,
time to read, photography and playing
with my dear fur babes that will all
be back at my side.
I dont rule out having a good time
in the entertainment life either,
perhaps good shows, walks in the
parks, going to a football match
and watching it without there being
brawls , and swearing and animosity.
To there being no racial discrimination,
to everyone being equal, to being
totally healed, slim and healthy.
To be able to run, swim, ski, and
so much more. To not having any worries,
to never shedding a tear of sadness,
to being with all my relatives that
have passed over before me.
My imagination runs riot.
Frivolous speculation?
Maybe.
Insulting to God? I hope not.
I imagine a Heaven built on all
the good we know leaving behind
all the evil.
Of course I still have times of
doubt and question .
Cutting my imagination wouldnt
help that but learning to trust God
would and this is where I would
find the peace in my mind and my
heart on this earth now.
If I trusted Him more to take
care of my future then I would
be more content with my present.
God doesnt really tell us exactly
what Heaven will be like simply
because He wants us to trust and
depend on Him.
He does promise us that He will
be there with us for all eternity
however.
I know day by day there is a reason
for my change of circumstances from
what I had during my first marriage.
Learning to live in more cramped
conditions with much less money but
with love and support always shows
me that if I trusted more in God
I would have more assurance of my
future and His promises.
He wants us to rely more on Him
for an eternity that is beyond
our ability to understand.
God does tell us in ...
Isaiah 65 17-19
'For behold I create new Heavens
and a new Earth and the former
Earth shall not be remembered,
not come into mind. The voice
of weeping shall no longer be heard'.
The bible also tells us that Heaven
is a 'place of happiness and ever
lasting reward where treasures dont
rust, wear out or get stolen'...
(Matthew 6. 19-20)
However for me the absolute best
promise about Heaven is found in..
John 14. 3
'That is where I am, there you may be also'.
So after my re-evaluation am I
still discontented with my little
apartment? Well only in a very
limited earthly sense.
I dont know if the streets of Heaven
are paved with Gold and if there are
any Pearly Gates there but I am certain
that my Father wants me to hold tightly
the anticipation of living there with
Him forever.
My imagination will never dampen.
I am convinced that God is planning
one surprise after another, and that
Heaven will be far more than even I
can imagine , not less.
So I tell myself what He told us
'Let not your heart be troubled- I
go to prepare a place for you'
AND YOU AND YOU.
I hope you enjoyed a little slice
of my life and I look forward to
sharing again next month.
love to everyone, and please do pass
this along and share Heaven with your
friends, especially those who dont
know our Lord.
I will end this months news with a Prayer.
Father in Heaven, we all become confused
in the darkness of what we dont understand.
Thank you for being so patient with us.
Help us to see that the Grace you have
shown us today is only a taste of Your
ability to use all eternity to surprise
us again with your goodness.
In Jesus name
Amen
My prayers and thoughts are with you all.
Until next month..Hugs..
Ann ~
Owner of Home_Made Intervals ~
Jermiah Calling ~
Co-Editor ~
Co-Manger ~
The Cottage ~
